Making Changes Daily

PLEASE DONATE TO HAITI!!!

2010-01-14T14:12:00.002-05:00

Please donate to help the people suffering in Haiti after the devastating earthquake that happened earlier this week. Even if it's only $5-it is needed right now.

http://www.redcross.org/

http://www.unicef.org/

LOVE!

2009-05-15T10:33:00.004-04:00

Love is EVERYTHING!

Seriously, it is!

And if you don't believe me, take a moment
and think of all the things, places, people you love.

Doesn't that feel good?!!!! :)

My Faves: Moisturizer

2009-03-03T11:22:00.006-05:00

I have been on a mission to find a moisturizer that does what I need it to do. Since I have combination skin it's hard to find one product to work well on both my dry spots and my oily spots. Every other moisturizer that I've tried has felt greasy and gross after 5 minutes. But not this Cetaphil Mosturizing Cream. I use it on my face and everywhere else. It makes my face and elbows feel smooth and soft. It's not greasy and it's a great base underneath my foundation-sometimes instead of putting on foundation I just use mineral powder over this moisturizing cream and it works like a tinted moisturizer. It's not heavy or oily and it quickly absorbs into my skin, making it feel super smooth. This is the best moisturizer ever and believe me I have wasted enough money trying to find one that works and this one is definitely a keeper.

Baked Pasta Casserole

2009-03-02T17:53:00.013-05:00

I've been on a mission to limit certain things from my diet (not eliminate) such as bread, rice, pasta, potatoes, and sugar. I've also been exercising and really listening to my body.

However, today I had a bagel and I'm alright with that because I can't remember the last time I had a toasted bagel with butter. Anyways, it didn't stop there. I haven't had pasta in a loooonnnng time and I felt for it today. So, I made my baked pasta casserole-and I made it the low carb, low sugar way.

Here are the pics and the recipe. You can tweak it anyway you want but you must get this pasta sauce(Seeds of Change: Arabitta Di Roma)-it's AMAZING! Click here for their website. Not only is it low carb & no sugar but it taste great, it's organic, gluten free and you can reuse the glass jar afterwards. I got it at my Food Coop but I'm sure you could find it at any Whole Foods or any organic grocery. (Click the pics to see details)

Recipe:

Half box of regular or low carb farfalle pasta (or any pasta you like)

Boiling hot water and 1 teaspoon of olive oil (add pasta when water has come to a boil)

In a skillet/frying pan:

1/2 tablespoon real butter (no margarine-its not good for you)

1/4 cup chopped scallions or onions (diced)

2 teaspoons of chopped garlic

1 teaspoon red pepper flakes

1 teaspoon basil

Stir all together for about 3 minutes

Add 1/2 pd ground beef or ground turkey to the skillet and brown the meat (about 12 minutes)

2 cups mozzarella cheese

1/4 cup Parmesan

3/4 of Seeds of Change pasta sauce

Drain pasta when it's al dente. Then drain the grease out of the browned ground beef. Add ground beef to pasta. Add sauce and stir. Add parmesan cheese and stir. Add 3/4 of your mozzarella cheese and stir. Place the mixture in a small casserole dish. Top with the rest of your mozzarella cheese. Bake for 20 minutes or until the cheese on top is brown.

YUMMMM!

Living For Today While Preparing For Tomorrow!

2009-02-26T12:54:00.010-05:00

“Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.” —Mahatma Gandhi

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” — Mark Twain

Unless you are living under a rock-your either talking about the economy or someone is talking to you about it. It can be really depressing and can leave a person feeling scared and hopeless. But with everything there is always a bigger picture.

Here's a snippet of an article that I recently read that got me thinking that even though times are tough, we still have to enjoy life and be in the moment.

When you worry about what may or may not occur in the future, you miss the joy that is available today - each and every day. So is the answer to focus only on today, and let tomorrow take care of itself? That sounds good - until tomorrow arrives and you are not prepared.

It's a paradox. How does one balance living in the now with preparing responsibly for the future? The key to this dilemma lies in the distinction between "worrying about the future," and "preparing for the future." The two concepts are not at all the same.

Click here to read the full article!

I totally agree that "worrying about the future" and "planning for the future" are two different things. I know most people are so worried about what will happen tomorrow that they don't see how much they are missing out on today. I believe in being in the moment because you can never get it back. I'm not saying to go out and spend all your money today-there is no need to act crazy now. Of course, money should be set aside for the future because you never know what can happen. Since you can't control what life will throw at you, you plan for the unexpected while keeping in mind that tomorrow is not guaranteed. This is the great paradox.

Another thing I've noticed is that most people who live their lives saying "when I lose weight, then I'll be..." or "when I ...I'll do..." or "when I get...then I'll..." never become, do, or go anywhere. In one of my favorite inspirational books, The Alchemist by Paulo Coehlo, the character Santiago begins working for an old man who owns a glass shop. The old man tells Santiago that when he was a young man he dreamt about making enough money to take a religious pilgrimage. This was a very important dream to him. He kept putting it off year after year because everyday life took precedence and he just never felt it was the right time. Then he became an old man and never went on the pilgrimage. Santiago helped him to raise enough money and he still didn't want to go. So he confessed to Santiago that he was afraid of realizing his dream-that having the dream was more important than fulfilling it. After reading this I placed a note on my work computer that reads: Don't be the old man in the glass shop!

Think about your own lives, what are the things that you put off because a dream dreamt makes you feel more alive than a dream fulfilled. Do you say to yourself any of the following:

When I lose weight, then I will wear certain clothes, feel better, be happier, date more, love myself more.

When I save enough money then I will travel, have a child, or be happy.

When I find a man then I will be happy.

When I get my career or degree then I can start being happy, life will then begin for me.

If you do, then you will never be completely happy and you will always be worrying about the future rather than planning for it. Imagine how different your mindset would be if instead you thought and said the same things but in a different way. For instance:

I've stopped eating crap and started moving my fat ass more, therefore as the weight comes off-I will:

-begin to wear clothes that I've always want to wear

-begin to feel better about myself, feel happier with life

-date more

-fall love with myself all over again

I've stopping buying unneccesary crap

-so I can now save money because I plan to travel or have a baby

I'm going to do what it takes
-to find a nice man that I'm compatible with to build a relationship with (because you can't meet him if you don't do anything to get the ball rolling).

I'm working on completing my degree

-so I can have a career, to save money, to do _______.

We also have to remember that nothing happens exactly as we plan it. All we can do is try our best, enjoy life and be in the moment because there are no guarantees and accepting that makes life a little easier.

Planning - constant worrying + action= dreams fulfilled! And that's what living for today while preparing for tomorrow is all about.

Must Have: Lightly Salted Almonds

2009-02-25T15:53:00.004-05:00

Buy them if you love almonds. They sell them everywhere and they are the perfect snack.

Click here for nutritional info!

Beauty: FAVE Items!

2009-02-25T10:46:00.003-05:00

When I go into meetings I need to have a little something on my lips or else I'll feel self-conscious and unpolished. I have about 3 lipglosses and 2 lipsticks in my purse, but I never remember to reapply any of them. Lately I've noticed that my Mac lipsticks are a bit drying.

So, my new love is Cover Girl Lipslicks. It's like a lipstick plus lipgloss (correction: more like a lasting tinted lip balm) in one and it goes on super smooth and I don't have to reapply it that often. It gives me just enough color but not too much because I wouldn't want to look like I'm going to the club. LOL :)
However, the trick is-you have to find the right color for you. I chose a plum color called hipster and it looks great and it makes my lips feel really moisturized.

My other new love is Revlon's Colorstay Black Eyeliner. I've heard women talk about it before and I finally decided to try it out. My $1.00 eyeliner just can't compete. This goes on smooth and lasts all day without smudging. Love it!

My husband bought me the best lip balm ever-Bobbi Brown's SPF 15 Lip Balm. Love it! I will not leave home without it.

Last but not least-my favorite eyeliner: Boujouirs Kohl Eyeliner (in any color but I love the purple). Even though Sephora doesn't sell it anymore (I have to now buy it on Ebay) it will forever remain my favorite.

Things to Ponder!

2009-02-19T20:00:00.003-05:00

I had to break it to myself--an appetizer is a meal all by itself!

What the hell have I been stuffing into this 5'4" frame all these years. All that damn food! It's disgusting when you think about how much food you eat when you go out to dinner. It's only recently since I've been going out to local restaurants (rather than chain restaurants) that I've been realizing certain things about my eating habits.

First, they ask you if you want a drink-I mean come on! HELL YEAH-I want a drink! And of course, I order a Cosmopolitan which is sweet and packed full of carbs and calories. On average I'll have two which on average are about 260 calories and 17 carbs EACH.

Then they bring out the bread and butter and forget it-if you go to Red Lobster you know you have to eat at least 2 of the cheese biscuits-Lord knows how many calories or carbs are in those.

Then you order an appetizer and eat that because your mind is telling you that you are hungry but really your not.

Then you order an entree which you end up taking home anyway because (seriously), you and I both know that after all of the above, baby girl is now feeling a bit sick.

Even still---sometimes you push yourself to go a bit further. You can't help yourself and you decide to take the plunge. Dessert Anyone?! Hello Brownie a la mode! (Yikes!)

And if you don't experience immediate diarrhea or vomiting after all that food then it will sit and sit in your belly ALL night long! (making you feel depressed and sort of in a food coma/depression)

How long do you think it's going to take to get rid of all of that? To digest all that? To actually feel hunger again? Probably about 24-30 hours to feel (honestly) hungry again.

Now granted-NOT EVERYONE EATS LIKE THIS (and there are people who can eat like this and remain slim. They are freaks of nature (joking) or it could be their genetics or their metabolism)--However, there are people that eat like this or close to this everyday, or every few days, seriously, even once a week is TOO much. Sadly, they don't think about how their habits are making them obese and sick and that's why most of America is obese and dying (IMO).

I've learned that the portion sizes at restaurants are for more than 1 person. So, my husband and I share everything. I rarely order an entree anymore. I'll just order an appetizer because with all the calories and carbs--an appetizer really is enough food for one person. If I do order an entree-my husband and I will share it and then we'll share a dessert. I also know that if I'm going out to dinner that night-I won't eat lunch and I'll have something really light for breakfast (yogurt and maybe a hardboiled egg white).

The major catalyst to losing weight is to STOP EATING SO MUCH! Simple huh? Yeah right! Every 4 minutes when we're watching TV, a commercial comes on telling us how good some food item is and how we should rush out and buy it. As consumers, it doesn't benefit the food industry, advertising firms, restaurants, CEOs, celebrity endorsers, etc etc for everyone to stop eating as frequent and in the large quantities they suggest and provide.

So, think about it, while we're eating and buying what they suggest-why are they the ones looking good and getting rich? Hmmmm!!??

On A Diet But Not Willing to Give Up....

2009-02-19T18:00:00.007-05:00

I'm on a diet but I just CAN'T give up 1 thing! My must-have is Haagen Daz vanilla ice cream.

I just can't give it up. Mind you, it's not an everyday thing (I have it 2 or 3 times a month) but when I want it, I'm gonna have it! I refuse to take it off my list of acceptable food items. I don't eat a lot of red meat or meat period and I don't need cakes or cookies or bread or pasta or potatoes. I could care less about these foods but I gotta have my Haagen Daz vanilla ice cream.

It's so bad that when planning my dream wedding-hubby and I decided on having a Haagen Daz station with Vanilla, Chocolate, & Strawberry (our favorite flavors) for our guests to make sundaes or to scoop and eat what they liked. Now, how wonderful would that have been?

Pretty darn great, I think!

Now, what is your must-have food item? You know-that special something you just can't give up no matter what diet you're on or what the scale says?

Fish Fry

2009-02-18T19:33:00.006-05:00

6 Whiting Fish Fillets
Old Bay Seasoning
Limes
1 tsp Black Pepper
Gluten-Free Flour
BBQ Pork Rinds
1 Egg
1 tbsp Parmesan cheese
1 tsp Parsley Flakes
1 tsp Red Pepper Flakes
Canola Oil
Salt (Optional) I don't cook with salt

Squeeze limes on fish (to clean it) wash it off with cold water (not too much water & be gentle with the fish). Throw off all excess water-season fish with 1 tablespoon old bay seasoning
Crush pork rinds in the bag until they are like bread crumbs
In a small bowl beat one egg for about 45 seconds
In another large bowl or pan combine 1/2 cup flour, Parmesan cheese, black pepper, red pepper flakes, & parsley flakes. Stir crushed pork rinds to this mixture.
In a frying pan, pour a half cup of canola oil and let it get really hot.
Dip fish fillets (one at a time) in egg, then coat each one with your flour & pork rind mixture. Place in very hot oil. Fry on both sides about 4 minutes or until crispy.
Put two paper towels on a plate and when fish is removed from oil, place the fish on the towels to catch the excess oil.

Try it! We had it tonight for dinner with broccoli and butternut squash. FAB!

Weight Loss!

2009-02-18T09:46:00.006-05:00

I've lost 6 pounds in 2 weeks and I'm feeling good about myself :)

I'm trying an experiment on how to lose weight and finding out what works for me. I'm 2 weeks into the experiment and if I see results in 2 more weeks then I will share my experience and blog about it. But for now let me leave you with a few key words to get your minds going about my little experiment:
1. Digestion

2. Sleep

3. Lifestyle change

4. Exercise

5. Break-fast

6. IF

Mmm...are your intrigued yet??

Authenticity

2009-02-09T09:33:00.015-05:00

As my husband tells me (all the time) "women can't help but copy one another-that's what y'all do". He then puts up his hands in surrender when I give him the shut up/sideways evil glare. :)

But seriously, most women do copy other women. We buy magazines, watch movies, tv shows to see what other women are doing, saying, buying, wearing and to see how exactly other women are wearing their hair, what shoes & bags they own and even sit pining over the weight and size of another woman. We're then always asking each other 'how did you lose the weight?" hoping to try it out to see if we could get the same results (9 out of 10 times we don't). We ask "where did you get that...?" to then go out or google where to buy it (and it probably won't even look good as it did on the other woman).

There are even women who'll see a woman with her significant other and because he looks good with that woman, she too will want a sample of him. These women know that they should find a man of their own but it's the copycat/covet syndrome that propels them to this behavior. Everyone should take the time to find what works for them, to buy the clothes that look good on their body and realize that having something (not as a direct result of seeing it on someone else) is truly the most fulfilling.

Even listening to your own body is better for you than trying someone else's diet routine because your body will tell you how to lose weight. It will tell you what foods to eat or not eat and it will also alert you when it's time to get off your butt and exercise (achy cramping muscles, anyone?) Don't get me wrong-I believe it's perfectly normal to look to others with admiration and for inspiration-but never duplication! Copycat-Covet Syndrome (this is my own medical term) has got to stop!

Think about it-what would the world be like if we all wore the same exact clothes, bought the same things, ate all the same food, were the same size and weight, smelled the same, looked the same, wore our hair the same, talked the same, etc etc?? It would be damn boring and god-awful. Isn't it exciting to learn something new (even about yourself), see something new, try something new? Of course it is-it feels really good!

I love different styles and love seeing people with their ways, their habits, their relationships and I admire what resonates with me. I've learned that I don't want to be exactly like any particular person/persons or a carbon copy of someone else's self discovery. I want to enjoy my own life because life is too short to be living a less than authentic life.

So far I've learned the following about myself:

1. I know that wheat, sugar, and salt are not my friends. They hinder my weight loss effort. The same is not true for others in my life.

2. My dream is to travel to Europe and possibly live or retire there. No one else in my life has European aspirations (except my husband).

3. Even though I frequent a particular hair advice site (Curlynikki)-I know that the way she does her hair doesn't work for me. However, as a result of admiring her efforts I've been able to find my way to sexy gorgeous curls using the products and techniques that work for me.

4. Even though I admire many women I see, I still buy what works for me, my body type, my personality, and especially what works for my financial situation. I will not specifically buy anything that I know someone in my close proximity owns (i.e. handbags, jewelry, shoes, etc). There are so many varieties of these items out in the world that purchasing the same things would just be copying someone rather than taking the time to decide what you personally like. When we do this, it's just insecurities at the forefront saying "I want to look like, be like, & own what she has because it looks good on her". No where in that statement is there any reflection of you the individiual. That's what copying someone does-it takes YOU out of the equation.

That's why I can totally understand when some women when asked "where did you buy that?" or "what's that your wearing?" or "how did you do...?" reply-- "I'm not sure" or "I can't remember" or (my favorite) "I got it at a little boutique while on vacation" (when it could have come from JCrew). It's their non-confrontational way of saying "find what works for YOU and stop trying to bite MY style!"

"Green-ing" our Water

2009-02-06T07:58:00.003-05:00

We all know water is important but plastic water bottles are a no-no! So, my husband and I have bought the Klean Kanteen stainless steel water bottle (Amazon.com $18) and we love it. I hope everyone stops buying water bottles and gets hip to the stainless steel bottle trend. Not only is it stylish but it's helping out the environment.
In addition to our Klean Kanteen bottle, we also have a Brita filter attachment on our kitchen sink.

All we have to do is put our filtered water in our stainless steel bottle and go! We take it everytime we leave the house-no need to buy water outside (saving money) T.A.T -Times Are Tough!

We're doing our part. Are you???

(and if you really want to be "green" then just use your hands and scoop water from the tap-some people say NYC water is the best around. Unfortunately, it makes me a little nauseous if I drink it straight-too much of a sweet taste for my liking)

ShopStyle

2009-02-05T08:46:00.008-05:00

I love this website so much!! I'm able to do some serious "window shopping". All I do is add what I like to my "favorites" and it creates a collage of all the items that I'm in love with at the moment. Gap, JCrew,and Banana Republic (in that order) are my favorite stores. I make my wish lists on Shopstyle and buy what I can afford and dream lovingly of the things that I can't.

Here's a peek at one of my collages:

Do you like shopstyle? What are some of your favorite websites for "window shopping"?

2009-02-05T08:45:00.004-05:00

Price: 8.99 at Target

Pros: It looks really nice and I received plenty of compliments on it.

Some issues I had with this product:

It was a bit heavy especially with the ice pack and the salad all in there together. The salad dressing dispenser doesn't work well with thicker dressing (i.e ranch dressing) which I shouldn't be eating anyway. It may work better with an italian or a vinagrette. This defeats the purpose of having it in the first place (convenience of being able to pour your dressing in there and not having to lug the bottle with you to work)-might as well skip salad for lunch during the week all together.
Also, even though the spork and knife that come with it are extremely adorable-they are not as functional as I would like. How many times can you wash and reuse them anyway? Plastic is bad when you use it too many times and there's no way I'm going to find another fork and knife that small to replace them once they are thrown away.

The bowl itself is pretty deep which gives you a good size salad for the day but the spork is so short that by the time you get to the end of your salad, your hand is down in the tub knocking against the sides with all the salad dressing getting on your hands and possibly your sleeve ( gotta roll them up before you eat).
I used it once but I doubt I will use it again. Actually it would be great for eating healthy on a road trip. But not to lug to the office everyday. For a road trip-it would get 4 stars but for everyday use it only gets 3 stars.

Listen To Your Body

2009-02-04T10:44:00.008-05:00

As I get older, I'm realizing that I need to listen to my body more because for the most part it tells me when something's wrong and even when I'm doing something right. For instance since I've started on this weight loss journey (because it truly is a journey), my body has informed me that sugar and wheat are not my friends. Suprisingly, my body doesn't like it when I drink too much water either. The reason I know this is because:

*When I eat sugar or sugar filled products ( even if its fruit (and I definitely can't have anything with high fructose corn syrup) my body feels sluggish. I then crave more sugar and my pee is a brighter yellow. Craving more sweets just perpetuates the weight gain cycle. Ughhh!

* I can't eat nitrates (cold cuts or hotdogs are a no-no!), I'll get a massive migraine and throw up.
*If I eat wheat bread or any bread or pasta- forget it the scale will say that I'm 5 pounds over my previous weight from that morning. My belly will puff out like Santa (not a good look)

*Sweet potatoes or even white potatoes in moderation don't seem to have the same effect. But I know my body will not let me eat them everyday.

*Water is a tricky one! Depending on whatever else I eat, I can predict my body's reaction to water. If I eat a lot of salt or sugar and try to drink a lot of water to flush it out then forget it-I'll be bloated and the scale will say that I'm 5 pds overweight from my weigh-in that morning.

*Sleep-if I don't get 7 to 8 hours of sleep, then my body will also retain water and my brain will be a bit sluggish. However, if I sleep more than 8 hours then I feel slovenly and extremely hunger and I'll have a tendency to binge eat on that particular day.

*Stress-makes me gassy, constipated, bloated and retain water. Simple as that.

*If I eat only when I'm hungry and exclude sugar and high sodium products then my body responds very well. My skin glows, my mind is less sluggish, I have more energy, and my body will then respond well to water. Water will actually quench my thirst rather than have me drinking with a sense of dry mouth, seeking more water. I'll urinate more frequently-leaving me with a very light pee color. Yippeee!

There are a few other signals my body gives me as well but I think I've TMI-ed you to death. So, think about your own body and how it reacts to the foods you eat and how you treat it. I believe this is the first step to losing weight and most importantly-getting healthy.
Sooo, what's your body telling you???

Seriously! Stop & Smell the Roses

2009-01-30T10:31:00.008-05:00

There's so much going on in our day to day lives that sometimes we feel like we're on the proverbial hamster wheel. But that's only because we make ourselves live that way. I really believe we all need to just "stop and smell the roses"! It may be a figure of speech but it means so much more. Everyday we hear about the economic crisis, people losing their jobs, people dying, all around the world people living in harsh conditions, etc. While most of us who appear to be running ourselves ragged actually have it better than most. We should always remember that life is not easy but also doesn't have to be hard. Life is what you make it and if you can't find the time to be in the moment then you miss more than you know and you'll never be able to get it back. Life's going to keep rolling on whether we decide to sleepwalk through it or spend it like a hamster on a wheel-so why not take time to appreciate life in all its splendor. We need to stop blaming everyone and everything for our shortcomings and missteps and just make up our minds to be better adults moving forward. We need to learn to stop sweating the small stuff and stop living our lives to please others. You have to live "your" best life. When you live your life with others in mind,you kill your true self and you give away the greatest gift ever-your inner spirit.

Some helpful tips from one of my favorite life improvement websites (basically things we already know):

Smile like everyone you see is your friend
Work like you don’t need the money
Play like you were a child again

Greet people like you haven’t seen them in years

Walk/Drive like you had all day to get somewhere

Dress like no one would ever notice what you have on

Give like no one will ever know about it

Exercise like there is no finish line, just the journey

Rest/Relax like you had all the time in the world

Forgive like you have no memory of the past

Lift like your are Hercules

Eat like your physical and mental health depended on it

Live like there is no tomorrow

Pick your car/house like no one will ever see you in it

Don’t find flaws in others, you are not so perfect either

Do nothing like you had nowhere else to be and nothing else to do

Dream like anything is possible if you want it to be

Never take anyone around you for granted, appreciate them every day

Help people like they are your younger brother/sister

Explore the world like it was all your home

Laugh with the innocence of a child’s view of the world

Make your own rules to live/work/play by

Wake up like you were given just one more day to make a difference

Be the fool….don’t care what others think….dance and sing to your own music….ignore your critics, let them wonder why you are so happy.

Foods to Avoid (when experiencing constipation)

2009-01-28T13:09:00.003-05:00

Meats, especially fatty meats, red meat and processed meats,

Dairy Products, such as cheese, ice cream and whole milk,

Fast Foods – burgers, French fries and other fried foods, pizza, etc.,

Refined grains, like white rice or any refined white flour products,

Highly starchy foods – white potatoes, corn and all refined grains,

Pastries and other high sugar products, such as cakes, cookies and pies,

Deep-fried foods, chips and other foods that are high in bad fats.

Besides the list above, some people experience constipation problems from eating any food they're allergic or sensitive to, such as wheat-based foods, gluten products or even bananas.

My Favorite Exercise DVDs

2009-01-15T08:30:00.002-05:00

I'm working out to these DVDs and they are really great and I recommend them to anyone who wants to sweat and burn some calories.

Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred

CRUNCH Salsa DVD

Favorite FOTKI's

2009-01-14T11:50:00.006-05:00

I have to admit that I love seeing what other people are doing with their hair and whether we may have the same texture and see what products they are using at the moment. Besides stalking CurlyNikki, I've also stumbled upon these ladies and their Fotki pages. They have the best hair and the best advice. They give me hope that my hair too, can look that good one day.

Here are my favorite Fotki ladies:

http://public.fotki.com/Kinkerbelle/

http://public.fotki.com/Asmarina415/

http://public.fotki.com/jonesybird/

http://members.fotki.com/so1913/ (I need to request her password)

Because of them, I've decided that to create a Fotki page of my own to track my hair journey and I'll post it on here tomorrow.

Weight Loss Update

2009-01-14T08:30:00.003-05:00

For the first 7 days of the new year, I began changing my eating habits at home and at work. Now, I've become very comfortable with my food choices and my body is beginning to crave healthier options rather than a big fat juicy cheeseburger or pizza. :)

Here's an example of what I would eat on a typical day.

Breakfast (at my desk at work)
Banana & Activia yogurt & Weight control Oatmeal

Snack
Almonds 3/4 cup or trailmix

Lunch
Lean Cuisine or small chicken breast and 2 cups salad from the deli

Snack
Some type of fruit or a granola bar

Dinner
Grilled chicken or ground turkey meatballs or fish + 2 sides of vegetables

Dessert
1/2 cup frozen yogurt

Also, as of January 10th, I've started to workout! It feels really good to get my body moving. As of today, I've lost 4 pounds.

Just the beginning....Hair Transition

2009-01-13T08:24:00.001-05:00

Unlike other blogs, this one is not a "how to" transition from relaxed to natural hair because I believe everyone's transition is unique to them. I"m learning as I go myself. One thing I do know is that water and conditioner work for me. Co-washing has beent he best thing I've started doing so far.

Even though I'm only in the beginning stages, I feel like I'm making progress i'm not sure what my hair type is and I probably won't know for at least another 6 months. Right now I am about 3 or 4 months in transtion and here's a picture of my hair:

Oprah & My Weight Loss Tips

2009-01-12T08:27:00.002-05:00

When I saw Oprah say that she "can't believe she is still talking about weight", it was as if she was speaking for me. I feel like I've been dieting and trying to get to my goal weight of 155 pounds what seems like forever. It's to the point where I feel like I have to stop talking about it and just "be about it".
Like Oprah, many people are struggling with weight issues and I honestly believe it's like being an alcoholic-you're never cured because you're always thinking about food in some capacity: whether to eat it, don't eat it, eat a little of it, eat it all, eat again, stop eating--which leads to other thoughts like: workout, hate working out, I look fat, this doesn't fit, why can't I look like that, is my ass really this big. It's a vicious cycle.

Well, I'm tired of being on that vicious cycle. So like Oprah, I'm going to admit that I have a weight problem, find the solutions to get me on a good path to dealing with it, and then move on and live my life to the fullest while trying to manage my weight and weight issues. I can't get too hung up on it or I'll just eat more or starve myself and feel guilty.

So for this new year 2009, these are the things that I plan to try to get to my goal weight.

1. I decided that I need to lose weight for me because I wanted to look good in a bikini on the beach with my husband!
2. I went to the grocery and bought "healthy" food (not sure what healthy means to anyone else but for me it means lean proteins, vegetables, fruit, yogurt, etc. No chips or sugar filled or salty products) I realize that I have to try different things. I can't eat salad and chicken and that's it!
3. Began counting calories. Decided I will only consume about 1200-1450 calories a day and writing down everything I eat
4. After I get comfortable with eating less and feeling healthier-then I will begin to workout (cardio & light weight training).
5. Plan to start slow-workout 3 days for the first week to get myself acclimated-then 5 days a week
6. Once I'm comfortable with working out (could take 6 months for this to happen) I will begin doing more weight training.

Lastly, there is NO quick fix to the losing weight. It takes time and patience!
Anyone who reads this and can relate to this post, I wish you the best of luck on your weight loss journey. If you have any tips, please feel free to share.

What's Going On-Marvin Gaye

2009-01-11T10:26:00.005-05:00

Imagine that a song written in the 70's could resonate so profoundly with the state of the world today. I watched this video performance on VH1 Soul last night and all I kept thinking was "What the hell is happening in the world today?" Israel and Palestine fighting and killing each other (for what? I still don't get it), America's fighting a war in the Middle East that seems to have no end in sight (even though we have an economic crisis going on right here in America) and everyone seems to be living in a daze, all the while buying things and putting themselves in further financial despair.

Also, I loved seeing the black folks in this video having picnics in the park and showing pride and strength in one another and now all I see is a lot of black people trying to live the hip-hop lifestyle like Jay-Z & PDiddy. They make it seem as if living like these hip-hop stars is the norm while making it seem as if the Huxtables and Obamas are few and far in between. It's very saddening. And even though we've made great strides in our race relations with white folks, we've lost a connectivity amongst our own black people (but that's a whole other post).

My question is--What about getting back to the basics? Being mindful of our impact on our environment and being mindful of how we're living our lives.. We ALL have to be aware of "what's going on" at home and in the world and always strive to be better than how we were yesterday.

Anyways, let me get off my soapbox because I'm rambling. Check out the video and see how it makes you feel.

Quaker Weight Control Oatmeal

2009-01-08T10:00:00.005-05:00

I have to say that this is the best oatmeal I've ever had. I love it and I recommend it for anyone trying to lose weight and having issues with what to eat for breakfast. I eat one packet every morning plus a piece of fruit and yogurt and I feel more satisfied and full than if I would have eaten pancakes, eggs, and sausage.

It's a way of eating something that taste good while managing your portion control. Each packet has about 130-160 calories.

Another Curly Hair Post-My Hair Inspirations

2009-01-04T14:00:00.000-05:00

I hope I can get my hair like these three ladies. I know it's going to take a long time but I'm ready, willing and able.
I have no idea what their hair type is or what mine is for that matter. All I know is that I want my hair to look just like these ladies below:

Fingerstyling 101-Miss Jessie's

2009-01-04T08:00:00.000-05:00

I really need to master this technique! I think this will have my hair looking a whole lot better. I will try it and then post a pic of the results.

Natural hair transition-products I'm trying

2009-01-03T11:50:00.007-05:00

So, I'm in the process of growing out my relaxer (last relaxer Oct 12, 2008) and learning to love my naturally curly hair and not being a slave to the relaxer, rollersets, hood dryer and the flat iron (even though my husband bought me a very very expensive flat iron for Christmas-sorry honey).

My hair recently 12/26-a work in progress8/2006-My Birthday Relaxed Great hair night
3/2008 Flexi-rod set-Great hair night
My relaxed hair-10/2006

I've always had curly hair and usually during the summer I would let my relaxer grow out and wear my hair curly. This time I'm going 100% curly-which means that I will be be cutting off my relaxed ends every few months and eventually all I'll have is my naturally curly roots-no more relaxer for me!

Curly hair 8/2005

I'm not ready to state what my regime is because I'm testing out products and techniques and getting myself acclimated to my hair again. I've been reading natural hair websites (curlynikki.com & naturallycurly.com) and getting a lot of advice. But I also remember things that I used to do in the past-so basically I just need to find the "ultimate curly hair routine" that works for ME!

Here are the products that have always worked well for me:
Water!!!
Conditioner
Ion oil free glosser
Motions CPR
Trader Joe's Nourish Spa shampoo (but I'm using shampoo less often)
Aveda pomade
Carol's Daughter Kizzi
Flexi-rods (large)
Blowdryer & diffuser

Here are the products that I'm currently trying out (the verdict is still out on these):
Kinky Curly Knot Today
Kinky Curly Curling Custard
Jojoba Oil & Coconut Oil (not sure if oils work for me-maybe just to seal my ends)
Cantu Shea Butter Leave In Conditioner
Twist 'N' Curl method c/o Curlynikki.com
No-poo method (Curly Girl by Lorraine Massey)
Satin pillowcase and satin/silk head scarves

Things that I've learned so far:
~Water, conditioning, & moisturizing is a MUST
~Not all products and techniques work for everyone
~There is a great freedom that comes with wearing your hair natural
~Transitioning takes patience (and not everyone is going to understand-but who cares)
~Try not to become a product junkie-there is no magic product to make your hair look like someone else's (find what works for you and the finesse it)
~Healthy eating and exercise make skin and hair look even better
~Relaxers are unnecessary and I will never put one in my hair again

Our Christmas Holiday

2009-01-01T14:10:00.010-05:00

Let me tell you---this Christmas holiday was really great. I had a great time with my husband and I had a great time getting together with our family. (CLICK PICS TO ENLARGE)

The holiday vibe at our house!

Christmas in NYC-Christmas tree lighting

Christmas in NYC

Christmas in NYC-tree lighting

Christmas in the NYC-walking to Rockefeller Center

Dinner out w/the Family @ Blue Ribbon-Fab night!
We went out to dinner with our family (on Dec 26) to our favorite Park Slope restaurant-Blue Ribbon and we had a ball! These are just a few of the pics documenting our night of great food, great drinks, and wonderful conversation. We laughed, talked and ate ourselves happy at the Blue Ribbon restaurant. Then we went back to our apartment for dessert (Jane's special cake). It was a wonderful day and a wonderful night.

I am very happy to have my loved ones in my life. Even though we are all living our separate lives and in different states-it is great to know that when we do get together it is a lot of fun and a great loving time.

My Family

Family 2

Me & My Sis

Me & Hubby

I hope everyone had a happy holiday and looking forward to a wonderful new year as well.
Blessings!

Happy Holidays

2008-12-19T08:36:00.002-05:00

Happy Holidays to everyone and anyone who may stop by to my little blog. I won't be blogging until the New Year and hopefully I will have things to blog about. See you in 2009!!

I've been gone for too long!

2008-12-15T08:25:00.000-05:00

I need to take some time and blog again. I'll be back with a post later today!
Stay tuned!

What did we do before there was Online Shopping?

2008-11-28T22:30:00.002-05:00

I can't even imagine what life was like before the internet...and I definitely can't imagine my life without online shopping. There was no way that I was venturing out in the Black Friday madness. So hubby and I got up this morning, sat down with the computer and took care of 3/4 of our Christmas list. We took advantage of the same deals that people were knocking people down for at 5am.

I can't imagine rushing and stampeding for a 42" flatscreen TV-to the point where I don't care if I hurt myself or someone else. Is it really that serious??

Come-To-Jesus Conversations

2008-11-25T14:39:00.001-05:00

Do you have a friend that you feel you need to have a come-to-Jesus conversation with? Meaning a conversation that is brutally honest---no holds barred.

If you do, I suggest you leave it alone because it will ruin the friendship. Just because you think you and your friend are really close, doesn't mean that they want to hear your judgments about how they act. Believe me, they know all their quirks, attitudes, and crazy ways. They themselves probably wonder why they do the things they do. All you can do is, let them be them. If how they act is really too much for you, hang out with someone else or try to understand their personality a little better.

No one wants to be judged and especially by a friend. Just let them figure it out on their own. I know that sounds bad-like your not being a true friend but you actually are being a better friend by not picking your friend apart.

I have a friend that needs someone to put her on about herself but it wouldn't even matter if you told her about herself. She likes who she is and she's happy with herself. I personally have outgrown her ways and mentality-so I limit the amount of time I get swept into her world.

Do you have friends like this? At this point, do you even call them friends or merely an associate????

I'm so busy at work...

2008-11-24T11:19:00.000-05:00

I have this great post that I'm yet to write because I'm so busy at work.

Be back soon!! ;)

Debra Messing's-The Starter Wife

2008-11-15T12:54:00.005-05:00

I rarely get to watch TV but there are a few shows that I do try to make time for. My three favorite shows are (in no particular order): Heroes, What Not To Wear, & The Starter Wife starring Debra Messing.

For those who have never watched this show, let me give a brief synopsis:
Molly (Debra Messing) gets a divorce from her husband because he cheated on her and took her for granted. He is a Hollywood producer and she's a writer and their whole world is consumed with everything Hollywood. So, basically everyone knows everyone's business. Now, newly divorced Molly, has to juggle being a 40 something year old mom who's trying to purse a career, help and be helped by her friends, and find romance all at the same time.

I have to say that I love this show. It is quirky,silly, sentimental, joyful, catty all rolled into one show. There is a real honesty in Molly's character as well as the others. I would totally be friends with Debra Messing's character because she wears her heart on her sleeve. She doesn't try to be more than what she is and that's refreshing. It shows that no matter how old women get, they can still be strong, vulnerable, funny, and serious all at the same time. It's an empowering show without trying to be.

I have to say that I love her friends and I wish I had a close circle like that. To some it may seem stereotypical to have the gay character, or the black girlfriend, or the beefcake black guy, or the alcoholic older white lady but really this is actually more the norm nowadays than most people want to admit. Most people have an inner circle that is possibly more diverse than the one on this show.

I just love it. If you do too, let me know what you love/like about it and if you hate it then let me know why too.

Answers...

2008-11-15T08:17:00.005-05:00

Yaaayyyy! I've been tagged by my favorite blogger, Kate. So, here are my answers....

Where is your mobile phone? I think it's in my bag-I rarely use it
Where is your significant other? At work
Your hair colour? Black
Your mother? In heaven
Your father? Life of the party
Your favourite thing? Books
Your dream last night? Strange
Your dream goal? Bliss
The room you're in? Bedroom
Your hobby? Writing
Your fear? Disappointment
Where do you want to be in 6 years? Living happily in a house with my husband,a puppy, and a baby
Where were you last night? Ziegfield theater-we saw 007 and at The Farm restaurant for our 2 year anniversary
What you're not? As assertive as I'd like to be
One of your wish-list items? a very good flat iron (my hair is not built for the rain and humidity)
Where you grew up? NY, Caribbean, & Virginia
The last thing you did? Read Kate's blog
What are you wearing? pajamas
Your TV? Huge
Your pets? Not allowed in my apt building (but I want a puppy badly)
Your computer? White
Your mood? Calm
Missing someone? Yes
Your car? Parked with leaves all over it
Something you're not wearing? Socks
Favourite shop? Trader joe's
Your summer? Gone
Love someone? Very much
Your favourite colour? Green
When is the last time you laughed? Last night
When is the last time you cried? Yesterday morning (hubby and I had an argument) :(

I will tag SpicedHoney.

The Holidays

2008-11-10T09:05:00.000-05:00

What do the holidays mean to you?
Is it a time to eat a lot or shop a lot?
Do you get together with all your family?
Do you travel or does everyone come to you?
Do you have a traditional or unconventional way of celebrating the holidays?

I would love to hear what you all are planning. I think this year Thanksgiving will be unconventional for me and hubby. I'll make a pumpkin pie & hubby will definitely make his honey ham but other than that I don't us doing the whole turkey & stuffing thing. I think we may go out to a restaurant and catch a movie that night.
We will definitely get a christmas tree and decorate the house but I don't see us spending any real significant amount of money because #1 the economy is bad and #2 it's just the two of us and we spend money on each other all the time. So, for christmas we may start some other type of celebrating tradition (with the fully decorated tree, christmas music, and egg nog included) but with a twist.

Maybe we'll volunteer this year at a soup kitchen. Any ideas??

The Way I Am-Ingrid Michaelson-Dedicated to O'B

2008-11-10T06:04:00.000-05:00

Lyrics:
If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cause I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cause I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

The 1st Family!

2008-11-06T09:22:00.005-05:00

Mr & Mrs. President!!!

He is going to be one of the BEST President's EVER in the history of the UNITED STATES OF AMERICA. I am so proud to be an AMERICAN.

Not only is he inspiring but him and his wife are inspiring together. They represent Black Love and it is beautiful to see then interact. I am in love with them and their family and I am extremely emotional and sentimental about what they have achieved. This is absolutely amazing and incredible.

I hope the everyone realizes that WE all have a lot of work to do to get this country out of the mess we're in. Obama is not a savior. Yes, him being elected is a momentous event and he is the right person to lead us in a new direction, but Obama will not be giving any of us hand outs. He expects each American to do our part to help him with all that he has to do. He believes in hard work and perserverance and that's what's going to make our country better. This is "the first time in my adult life that I am proud to be an American" and if I can help do my part in any way shape or form, I will!.

We have to make America great again and we have to take care of each other.

Review: Trader Joe's Shampoo & Conditioner

2008-10-27T10:00:00.001-04:00

Shampoo: TJ's Nourish Spa
Conditioner: TJ's Tea Tree Tingle

I'm a total product junkie (trying to calm this down a bit as we're trying to be more "green"). I have to say that TJ's shampoo and conditioner is my favorite right now. My hair smells nice and it feels healthy after I shampoo and condition. I leave the conditioner on a little longer on my ends because my ends need extra conditioning (who really knows if this works or not).

Anyway, this is a great product and the I think together they cost about $6. You gotta love Trader Joe's!!

FIERCE Single Man...Beyonce's "Single Ladies"--Must SEE!!

2008-10-26T13:30:00.005-04:00

FIERCE!!!

*Beyonce knew what she was talking about. Men need to put a "ring on it" if they like it soooo much. If they won't then another man will!!*

[Chorus]
Cuz if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
Don’t be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
Here's Beyonce!!!

Over the shoulder boulder holders

2008-10-20T14:43:00.011-04:00

It's supposedly true that 80% of women are walking around wearing the wrong bra size. That is amazing.

80%-8 out of 10 women-that's a lot of women walking around with a bra that's either too big or too small, pinching, hurting, sliding, rolling, or just plain uncomfortable and that sucks!!

I recommend that every woman go and have a professional bra fitting and then continue to measure yourself every six months. Our bodies change constantly and sometimes our bras get stretched out as we gain weight or they become loose when we lose weight. The bras that fit before, may not be fitting at the moment. Seriously, think about it-you wear a bra everyday and it's either the first or second article of clothing you put on everyday, so you better make sure it's the right size and fit.

A few years ago, I had a professional bra fitting and I was shocked to find out that I was a 38FF. I had been wearing Lane Bryant bras (which suck) and I was wearing a size 42DD. I can't even describe to you how I felt when my "girls" were finally lifted and separated. It was a wonderful feeling. I didn't feel any sharp pinching on my sides and my straps weren't digging into my shoulders. I felt very sexy and confident standing half naked in a dressing room with a complete stranger. I totally forgot that the fitter was even in the room. I couldn't believe how great I looked in my new bra.

Now here I am again, looking to update my bra options and I remembered one sad part about that day--the prices! Those bras cost a grip! Freya and Fantasie are my favorite brands and I found a few at Figleaves and Barenecessities but each bra is between $60-$85 and lets not talk about the matching panty or thong to go with it. They cost about $20. The sports bras are a must have even though they cost $60.

How much do your bras cost? And are you wearing your correct size??

These are the two I really like:

Fab things....on a budget!

2008-10-19T10:52:00.000-04:00

Last night, Brian and I had a date night at Ikea. We walked around the showrooms and added items to our "comfy home" wish list. Then we strolled over to the restaurant/cafe and had one of the cheapest date dinners we've had in a long time.
It cost $20 for the both of us (sadly, our usual date night dinners cost about $150-including tip. Park slope date nights are romantic but EXPENSIVE).
I have to say that Ikea is much needed for those of us on a budget. When you buy things from Ikea it doesn't even feel as if your on a budget because everything just looks so great. But it's all about how you put it together. Brian and I have settled on a bedroom set and a few living room items that we will be purchasing once we get our budget in order. Even though the price is slightly cheaper than other furniture stores-things do add up, making our total possible spending (plus tax) about $2,000. I wish they had a payment plan. Buy all you want and pay it off over 12 months without any interest. This is my favorite payment plan because with a great credit rating and sucky salary-you can have anything you want for $150 a month. That's my spending philosophy!!

Our other dilemma now is....PAINT! Even though we're only planning to be in this apartment for another two years (lease), we want to paint our one bedroom, large living room apartment. We're thinking about smoked oyster for the bedroom and sea sand for the living room-both with an ivory white trim all around. I think it will look great but I wish someone else was footing the bill.
Anyway, here's a picture of our new sofa. Excuse the mess-this picture was taken right when it was delivered. We got it from Macy's and I have to say it's huge, expensive, sooo out of our budget...and it's FAB!!!

TRADER JOE'S-Oh how I LOVE you!! :)

2008-10-15T08:48:00.005-04:00

We will never shop anywhere else! Oh, how I love Trader Joe's!!
This is my favorite grocery store ever. I will be reviewing some of the products that we've purchased. So stay tuned!!

P.S. I wish it was right around the corner though. We need a Trader Joe's at Cortelyou Road.

A letter to my child/children...

2008-10-11T09:52:00.010-04:00

African Madonna-Wolf Imaging

Dear Child/Children,

Even though you haven't been conceived yet, please believe that you are thought of already by your father and me. We can't wait to see you, watch you grow, and experience life with you. I will enjoy having you as a baby and even though I know things will change between us as you get older, I want you to know that I will always be by your side no matter what. Even though I'm living my own life right now and I've made my own mistakes, I still want to share with you what I've learned so far. You, of course will make your own mistakes but I hope my words will resonate and help you along the way.

First, let me start by saying that you should always stand up for what you believe in. It is your life, your voice, and your opinion. With that being said, you still have to be respectful of others and their life, their voice, and their opinion and find the balance of when to follow and when to lead.

When letting someone else lead you, remember to always be in control of your own destiny. In other words, you control when to get on and when to get off and never forget that. Sometimes you can travel with others and sometimes you have to travel alone-that is just life! Nothing good or bad about it.

Negative people will always be around you. Find a way to keep the positive people closer to you and to keep the negative people at arms length. Life is too short to have people in your life that make you feel weighed down and there is no reason why you should be weighing anyone else down either.

Always make your own decisions. Do not wait to see what others are doing before you know what you want to do. If you live your life waiting for others to dictate what, when , why and how-then you won't be really living at all.

LOVE! Love yourself and love others-but NEVER love things. Fall in love, fall out of love, make love (when you are old enough), love being loved, love loving, and love life. Find and hold on to honest love.

Never live above your means but always strive for the best life possible. Whatever complete happiness feels like to you-GO GET IT. Make it your duty to have the best life that you can possibly have. Travel, see the world, read lots of books, explore, have great conversations, talk to people from all walks of life, and live your life with as little prejudice as possible. You can have preferences but not prejudice. By preferring,that means you are making an educated and thoughtful choice but being prejudice is prejudging without knowledge of (this is my own definition).

LAUGH. LAUGH. LAUGH until it hurts and then LAUGH some more.

Admire and compliment those who you feel are living their best life because others will admire and compliment you for living your best life.

Do not abuse drugs or alcohol-it robs you of LIFE, period.

Lastly, Don't be a dreamer-be a DOER. Think of what you want and what you would like to do and just go for it. Always be aware of your role in the universe because "even the smallest person can change the course of the future"-Lord of the Rings.

And always remember that I love you and your father loves you and we want the best that life has to offer for you. So, be brave, be strong, be positive, be motivated, and be and do YOU, my love!!

Friendly advice....

2008-10-10T12:11:00.007-04:00

My coworker and friend Taneka is truly one of the sweetest people I know. She always has a smile, words of encouragement, and forever helpful with work situations. Today, I got so frustrated (mind you I've been feeling this frustration building for the last 2 months or more) and I went to her and spoke openly about how I feel about work and life and things like that. I have no idea why I just went and sat by her desk and started talking. I needed to speak to her to get another perspective. The only other person I can talk to about these feelings are Brian.

She spoke to me openly and gave me great advice. She even said that she too feels the same way that I do. People would never understand how helpful it is to be able to talk and get advice from a person that you respect and admire. I feel truly greatful to have met her and I hope we can be friends even after we've both moved on from this place. I think I will have to work on that.

Her advice to me finally was...To find myself and figure out what I want to do and JUST DO IT. Not to worry about EVERYBODY else-just God, myself, and Brian. Find my dream and go for it and not to worry about things or people that will bear no relevance in the long run.

This is exactly what I'm going to do!

*Update-Later in the day, while sitting at my desk, Taneka came and placed a bag on my desk. Inside the bag was a book she wanted me to read that she felt would inspire me in finding my dream. I felt very touched that she would go out of her way to actually get the book for me. That was very thoughtful of her. I'm reading the book right now and I will be back to give my feedback.*

Be Right Back!!

2008-09-30T08:38:00.005-04:00

Fo-sho!! I'm working on something to blog about.

WTF is this $hit!!

2008-09-18T09:45:00.002-04:00

This is BEYOND RACIST! Come on America-aren't we in 2008 going on 2009???

Meditative Breathing

2008-09-15T11:05:00.015-04:00

I have always had my own special breathing technique which I use to calm me down. I close my eyes and take a deep breath in (while in my mind saying "Postive energy in") and then exhaling deeply (while in my mind saying "Negative energy out"). For the most part this has helped me tremendously.

Life gets hectic and we all get overwhelmed. Even the thoughts in our heads can have us overwhelmed. Especially if you're like me with a running to-do list screaming at you from your brain and a part of you knowing that you'll NEVER be able to complete all or most things on that list. This is when I find meditative breathing to be most helpful. Sometimes I just need to center myself while finding a way to quiet that inner voice of chaos. We all have our subconscious moments when we quiet that inner voice. For instance, there are times when you find yourself sitting or laying on the couch totally engrossed in a show or movie, your breathing is steady, and although that list may be running through your mind, it's now in a softer voice. This is the same effect mediative breathing has on me.
So I wonder when my mind starts driving me crazy about my weight and body issues whether meditative breathing might be helpful. So, instead of saying negative energy out and postive energy in. I'll take a deep breath in and say "Size 6" and then let out a big breath and say "Size 14" or a deep breath in and say "Healthy good food" and a deep breath out saying ""Greasy bad food".
(HAHA)
Now if this works, I'll be sure to let you know because you know what they say, it's "mind over matter"!

What I'm Reading Now-Snow Flower and the Secret Fan

2008-09-15T10:56:00.005-04:00

Song: Cold hearted snake-Paula Abdul

What I've Read...

2008-09-07T19:03:00.005-04:00

This is a must read. I could not put it down. After Columbine, everyone wanted to know why? Why would they do what they did? This novel gives the reader a look into the lives of these characters facing a similar situation. You are invited into the lives of all those involved in a tragic shooting inside a fictional New Hampshire school. You will find yourself flip flopping between what you feel is right and wrong and in the end you realize that most times not all things are black and white...there usual is a lot of gray. I hope you take the time to read this book because it is definitely worth it.

Song: Phil Collins-Invisible Touch

Loving my CROCK POT

2008-09-07T18:37:00.009-04:00

This is my first Crock pot and I'm loving it. I decided that eating out is costing us too much money and cooking is taking up too much of my time. So, I decided to get a 5.5 quart Crock pot and it's the best $29.99 I've spent in a long time. Here are my recommendations for those looking to get a crock pot: I say get one that's on sale first and if you become a master "crock-potter" then upgrade to a fancy one. Get a trivet to put under the crock pot because it gives off a lot of heat and it's a little scary when it's right on your counter top. You want to be able to put your ingredients in and forget it. No time to be worrying about how it's doing its thing.
I've been craving two things lately: 1. Lobster 2. Chili. Now that I have my crock pot, I decided to get the ingredients for chili to satisfy one of my two cravings. Next week lobster dinner here I come!! :)
Here's a look at how my chili and corn bread muffins turned out.
I would give you the recipe but I basically threw in a bunch of stuff and did little to no measurements but it turned out great. The crock pot served its purpose this weekend and I'm beyond happy that I got it. I was able to get my hair done, go to the gym, clean the house, clean the fridge, I read half my book, and I watched about 5 back to back episodes of HOUSE (one of my favorite shows).

Song: Can I take you out tonight?-Luther Vandross

Fashion Friday: My 2008 Style Inspirations

2008-09-05T09:40:00.000-04:00

Loving the crisp white shirt, jeans, gray structured blazer, and black handbag. Classic look! All about the classy not the trendy.

Katie nails it with the simple black long sleeve t-shirt and silk scarf-This is a must have look.

Nia Long always looks FABU. She is one of my favorites. I love the structured leather jacket and the earth tones. These colors compliment her skintone-keeping her looking classy and sophisticated. Loving it! Substitute the shorts for wide leg pants or jeans-Perfect!
I'm loving her makeup and hairstyle. Inspiring!

Tracee Ellis Ross is my kindred soul sista. I love her free-spirited style and that she wears clothes that compliments her body shape. She has a big booty and she works it. Love that about her. I'm totally in love with her naturally curly hairstyle. Her fashion styles and her hair styles are simply inspiring.

Song: Mercy-Duffy

Book Review: The Kite Runner

2008-09-04T14:12:00.004-04:00

The Kite Runner follows the story of Amir, the privileged son of a wealthy businessman in Kabul, and Hassan, the son of Amir's father's servant. As children in the relatively stable Afghanistan of the early 1970s, the boys are inseparable. They spend idyllic days running kites and telling stories of mystical places and powerful warriors until an unspeakable event changes the nature of their relationship forever, and eventually cements their bond in ways neither boy could have ever predicted. Even after Amir and his father flee to America, Amir remains haunted by his cowardly actions and disloyalty. In part, it is these demons and the sometimes impossible quest for forgiveness that bring him back to his war-torn native land after it comes under Taliban rule. ("...I wondered if that was how forgiveness budded, not with the fanfare of epiphany, but with pain gathering its things, packing up, and slipping away unannounced in the middle of the night.")-Amazon Editorial Review

All I can say is that this is a must read!!

This story will have you emotionally involved from the first page. The reader is able to see the story so vividly because you feel connected to the characters and their experiences.
It doesn't matter what race, ethnicity or country a child is from, they all need to be protected and cared for. Children have experiences that are far more complex than we realize sometimes. Even though we were all children once, we forget how the things from our childhood resurface and manifest itself in our adult lives. The relationships that children have with other children are just as impressionable as their relationships with adults.

If and when you find the time to read a great book-pick up a copy of The Kite Runner and you will not be disappointed-unless you have no heart, or soul, and live under a rock!!

Song: Express Yourself-Salt-N-Pepa

Weigh-In Wednesday: Campbell's Chunky Chicken & Dumpling Soup

2008-09-03T09:16:00.001-04:00

Let me tell you about this soup. First off, it was on sale at Pathmark for $1.25 a can.
I've tried chicken & dumpling soup in a can before and always hated the taste. Never has a can soup tasted like this. This soup was so great!! It was hearty and filling and the taste was like homemade soup. *They say do not add water but I added a splash (when I say splash I mean open faucet close faucet in 1 second)of water inside the can and swished it around and emptied the leftover watery mixture to the pot*
It's a very filling soup, so you can eat half now and half later-which is great for those of us on a diet.

Nutritional facts:
Servings per can: 2
Calories: 180, 360
Fat: 7,14
Fiber: 4, 8
*I added a pinch of black pepper*

So if your doing Weight Watchers, this is a great soup for you because it taste great and 1 serving is only 3 points. If you eat the whole can then that's a total of 6 points-which isn't so bad if you had a salad for lunch and you did 30 min of cardio.

I can't even stress enough how great this soup tastes and how filling it is. I ate the whole can for dinner and I know next time I will only have 1/2 a can.

So, if you try it please come back and tell me what you thought. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did.

Good Eats: Four Cheese Pasta W/Shrimp

2008-08-30T17:14:00.011-04:00

Dinner option: Four Cheese Pasta w/shrimp & Green tea

Weight Watchers Points = 6

Recipe:
1 cup large shrimp (uncooked, shell removed and deveined)
1/2 cup (2oz) Ronzoni Smart Taste rotini pasta
1/2 packet McCormick Four Cheese sauce
1/4 cup chopped scallions
1 tbsp chopped garlic
1 tsp curry powder
1 tsp country crock butter
3/4 cup fat free milk
1 tbsp country crock butter
salt & black pepper

-Thaw shrimp, place in a bowl, rub a little salt and curry powder onto shrimp
-cook pasta until al dente
-In sauce pan, melt 1 tsp of butter, cook garlic and scallions for 2 minutes
-Add shrimp to sauce pan, add a pinch of black pepper, cook until pink all over about 7 to 10 min
-Drain and remove cooked pasta from pot.
-Add milk and 1 tbsp butter to pot, melt butter. Add half of the Four Cheese sauce mix packet. Stir continuously for 2 minutes. Let sit for 1 minute, it will thicken a bit.
-Add cooked pasta & shrimp to sauce. Stir and serve.

Yummy!!

Serious Thoughts

2008-08-29T18:09:00.007-04:00

-Racism is ALIVE and THRIVING in this country
-Bigotry is ALIVE and THRIVING in this country
-The poor are sinking deeper into poverty while the rich stay RICHER
-The American Dream as it once was-is NO more
-ALL children regardless of their race, class, religion, ethnicity DESERVE a good education so that they can compete with our foreign counterparts
-"If you don't stand for SOMETHING you'll fall for ANYTHING"
-There are some people who have no idea what is going on in politics or how important it is to be an informed American
-I'm an advocate for HUMAN RIGHTS...not just civil rights, or women's rights, or children's rights or elderly rights. We are all HUMAN beings.
-Be the change you want to see. Me and my husband live by this everyday.
-What happened in New Orleans with Hurricane Katrina CANNOT happen again. The American government is NOT supposed to treat their OWN like that.
-This world CANNOT only be benefiting the FEW. EVERYONE deserves the chance and so do their children.
-PRO-CHOICE, PRO-CHANGE, ANTI-WAR, PRO-DIPLOMACY, ANTI-RACISM, ANTI-BIGOTRY!!!
-When I have my kids, my husband and I will take them to different parts of the world so that they can experience other cultures from an early age. I want my children to be open minded with the ability to judge people based on their character rather than how they look.

I have a lot more thoughts but I'm getting upset right now, so I'll have to revisit this post at another time...

Fashion Friday

2008-08-29T14:06:00.006-04:00

Style Icon: Michelle Obama

Besides being an amazing role model for African-American women and women all over the world, Michelle Obama is a style icon. She has a classic style that shows off her personality so well. It's obvious that Michelle does not follow what's trendy. Her style and wardrobe have a sustainability that resonates in every picture taken. She knows what works well for her body shape, her height, her lifestyle, and her age.
I love the basic colors and classic pieces that she wears. She adds a touch of color here and there with her accessories. Her clothing always has structure to them as well as clean lines. She strikes me as a woman who gets her clothes tailored to fit (every woman should because one size does not fit all). I love the idea of being monochromatic and adding a splash of color here and there. I will be doing that this fall as well. For instance, a black top with a black bottom and a pop of color on an accessory (like a shoe, or handbag, or bracelet). Michelle makes me want to run out and do some shopping!

Here's a list of wardrobe basics inspired by Michelle Obama's outfits: (don't know what name brands she's in to and really and truly it doesn't even matter):
-Shirt dress
-Pants suit
-Trousers
-White shirts
-Ballet flats
-Blazers
-Trench coats
-Boots
-Heels
-Accessories (minimal)
-Cotton tees
-Cotton trousers
-Wide belts
-Pencil Skirts
-Blouses

Song: Signed, Sealed, Delivered, I'm Yours--Stevie Wonder

The Goings-On: Governor's Island-NYC

2008-08-28T21:46:00.010-04:00

This week my office had our annual retreat. School starts back and it was time again to reflect on what our office is doing to foster facilitative leadership while creating sustainable schools in New York City and the 5 boroughs. We all spent the day on Governor's Island. It was exciting for us all to be together on the ferry early in the morning knowing that we were gathering outside of our office to speak collectively about our work. I learned so much from my fellow co-workers and was truly inspired by the commitment and dedication to the students of NYC. Here are a few pictures of Governor's Island:

Re-Org....

2008-08-28T11:46:00.010-04:00

daily change: need to reorganize

I started this website and I feel like I need to reorganize what I put on here. So from now on these are a few of the things I will be focusing on as topics of conversation.

1. Weigh-In Wednesday---Weekly weigh-ins which will be done in two parts. My own personal weight loss weigh-in and me weighing-in on healthy items that I want to try out (adding a little variety in my diet and grocery shopping)

2. The Goings-on---I'll be talking about what's going on in my life and how it may or may not be affecting my weight.

3. Fashion Friday---I'll be discussing fashion ideas for all shapes and sizes. As well as featuring my favorite fashion websites.

4. Finding Zen---I'll be discussing my own meditation, spirituality, and others ways to center oneself and become more in touch with all aspects of feeling and being healthy.

5. To Read or Not to Read...---I'm a voracious and avid reader, so I'll be giving reviews on the books I read. Hopefully an online book club can begin as a result of this. Who knows!?

6. Lastly, at the end of each post there will be a song that I heard that day that has stuck in my mind during my post.

Song: Like That-Mariah Carey

Happy Birthday to Me!

2008-08-26T20:12:00.008-04:00

daily change: been going to the gym and lost another pound (but I need to weigh myself tomorrow)

Today is my birthday! Happy Birthday to me!

Some reflections of the past year:
1. Marriage takes work
2. Dreaming about losing weight and doing something to lose weight are two different things
3. I adore my husband
4. Michelle & Barack Obama have inspired my desire for politics and to be knowledgeable about the political system
5. I find great joy in books-GOOD books
6. I want a child or two with my husband
7. I yearn to win the lotto
8. Just because people smile in your face, doesn't mean their your friend or really like you (I see more of this as I get older)
9. Time flies and it's wasted when your working in a job you have no passion for
10. It's not wise to judge someone's relationship
11. I'm a major worrier and I can't change no matter how I try
12. Most people piss me off or irritate me
13. I wish, hope, and dream more as I'm getting older
14. I'm beginning to hate the superficial and those who worship it
15. I think it may be too late to make new friends
16. There is a song for every occasion
17. Life is still all about CHOICES-nothing more nothing less(one choice after
another)

Song: Hello Stranger-Queen Latifah

We've Joined A Gym...

2008-08-20T14:39:00.008-04:00

Daily change: We've joined a Gym!

We took the plunge, made the committment, and signed a contract for a gym yesterday. The gym is in Park Slope,Brooklyn---Harbor Fitness. Citysearch gave it like 5 stars.
Even though yesterday was only our first day, I think I might be giving it 5 stars as well. I felt totally comfortable, motivated, and excited to be there. The location is great for us too because we spend most of our time in Park Slope anyway.
I worked out for about an hour and a half (even though we were there for about 2 hours). We tried their protein shakes and boy let me tell you---they were AMAZING!! I did the treadmill, stairmaster, elliptical, and the weight machines and I can't wait to see some results because of course I can't wait to frolick on the beach in that white bikini with my hubby.

So I'll be keeping track of my progress with pictures-(maybe monthly).

We're going to the gym tonight. Can't wait! Imagine-I'm actually looking forward to going to the gym. I especially like it that we're doing it together.

The only thing I wish I could have now is a puppy. But we're not allowed to have pets in our apartment building. I wished we'd have moved rather than signed a new lease.

Song: Three Little Birds-Bob Marley

Losing Weight for Pregnancy

2008-08-19T11:06:00.009-04:00

daily change: epiphany

The reason why I want to lose weight is because I plan on being pregnant the end of next year. If that's not the best reason to lose weight, then I don't know what is!
Forget the clothes and all that. I want to be healthy to carry a healthy baby.

I'm so pumped and motivated now. I have to tell Brian! Are you reading this babe?
How you feel about us getting pregnant next year?

Few tidbits of information recently read:
1.A child's weight may be affected by how big the mother is and how much weight the mother gains during pregnancy.
2.Some large women can get pregnant and be on a weight loss/weight maintenance program without causing any harm to the baby.
3.It is recommended that the mother lose weight before getting pregnant and only gain between 15 and 35 pounds.
4. Folic acid is a must
5. Moderate exercise is recommended all through pregnancy. It makes it easier to delivery and less likely to need a C-section (which I would like to avoid)

Song: Trouble-Amel Larrieux

"Stuff does not define self-worth"

2008-08-18T09:12:00.011-04:00

Remember that stuff does not define self-worth. It's cliché but true. Money can't buy you love or happiness.
I suspect that YAWNs, like anyone else, find fulfillment in personal relationships and social causes because those are things that last. Why waste time, energy and money trying to impress other people with designer clothes, fancy cars and palatial mansions? Those are merely distractions. It's the things that money cannot buy that best define your life.
(Article by Kiplinger titled Modest Millionaires on a Budget)
*YAWNS-Young And Wealthy but Normal

This philosophy is one that has been an integral part of my marriage. My husband (even though he loves nice things) is a workaholic who loves to save money. He doesn't care how much money others have and he doesn't spend our money so that others can see how much we have. I absolutely love him for that!!

When I was in my early 20's I didn't have the right people around to help guide me with spending. I hung out with people who used material things to show value. By following them (no one to blame but myself for this), I spent money that I shouldn't have. It's only now that I've matured and in talking to my husband, I realize how important it is to SAVE for the future. Money should be used to sustain and enjoy your life--not to show-off to others. Or used to make others feel that you are better than them.
Buying things does not make you a better person and it doesn't make you better than anyone else. It is quite freeing not trying to show your self-worth by the things you own but to let your self-worth shine through by just BEING who you are!

Don't Compare Yourself To Others!

2008-08-17T10:12:00.010-04:00

daily change: self analyzation

I'm going to be 29 years old in a few days and I realize that I've spent most of my 28 years comparing myself to others. I don't want to do that anymore. I really want to change that part of myself. It's one thing to admire someone and let their story motivate you but when you feel less than because you feel someone is more, has more, & has done more than you-there lies the problem.

Before my mom died, she told me "Don't let anyone steal your sunshine" and "Don't worry about what other people have because you don't know what they had to do to get it". My husband tells me the same thing. I admire that about him. He's the type of man who knows what HE wants and doesn't look at anyone's life and tries to achieve what they have. He's the type of man who runs his own race.

For many years, I've dealt with not feeling good enough. I wonder now--good enough for what or for whom? It's always something though-whether it was my dad, friends, boys, etc. I never felt like I measured up in comparison to others and how they were living. I realize that because I was so busy comparing myself to others, I stopped fully enjoying ME and my accomplishments. I really need to toot my own horn once in awhile and pat myself on the back for the things I've struggled through and achieved. Being able to do that will raise my self esteem. I'll begin to feel as if I'm running my own race and not playing catch up with anyone else.

Life is so short! I don't want to be the type of person who can't enjoy the moment and who's constantly setting expectations for happiness. Then I'll never be happy! I'll always be saying "when I lose weight then..." or "when I make more money, then..." or "when we save this money then..." or "when we buy this house then..." to be happy.

I'm tired of comparing myself to others. I'm tired of being unkind to myself and being kind to everyone else. I'm tired of dreaming about what happiness will be like tomorrow. I'm tired of feeling less than, when I know that I'm really an amazing person. My weight doesn't change ME or make me less than anyone else. Yes! I do want to lose weight, but so I'll be healthier, & stronger. I'd like to smaller because we plan on getting pregnant soon. And of course I love to shop for nice clothes (most styles I like come in smaller sizes) :)

Eating something bad doesn't make me a bad person. Not having certain things like other people doesn't make me less. Being me is JUST FINE! Being me is quite amazing, actually!!! (TOOT TOOT)

Song: Champion-Kanye West

2008-08-16T23:19:00.002-04:00

8 GOLD MEDALS AT ONE OLYMPIC GAMES! HISTORICAL

ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!!! GOOOO PHELPS & TEAM USA

BEST HISTORICAL MOMENT ON TV...OBAMA BECOMING PRESIDENT WILL BE THE NEXT ONE TO HAPPEN.

The Goings On...

2008-08-16T21:23:00.003-04:00

daily change: Got up early- hubby and I went and worked out for over and hour at Bally's

Here's a picture of my guilty pleasure-Good Food!

I made this quiche a few nights ago and we still have half left. I've had a lot of self control even though it taste so good.

Also, it felt so good to put on my gym clothes early this morning, walk into the gym and do what I set out to do. I felt like Michael Phelps. (Can't you tell that I'm glued to the Olympics?!)

I'm working on an interesting topic for tomorrow or Monday about stress, friends, goals, and the good life. Stay tuned!

Song: No Substitute Love-Estelle

BEST Oil Blotting Sheets Ever--Clean & Clear Morning Burst

2008-08-15T19:00:00.005-04:00

daily change: wasn't stressing myself about food today-working too much to notice (no snacking means no unnecessary carbs & sugars)

Go and buy it if your a blotter. I've tried The Body Shop tea tree brand--it can't even compare. This product really works!!

Song: I need you bad--Jazmin Sullivan

My Current Beauty Faves!

2008-08-13T14:04:00.010-04:00

Daily change: ate breakfast and felt full longer than usual. would like to make this a habit. we'll see!

Nails: Essie Nail Polish Delicacy
Cheeks: Nars Lovejoy blush
Eyes: ELF brand eyelash curler (best thing ever), Diorshow blackout mascara, Boujour eyeliner in purple, Nars bombshell eyeshadow
Lips: ELF iced latte lipgloss & Burt's Beeswax lipbalm

Scents: Bath & Body Works coconut & lime verbena & Dolce & Gabbana the one parfum
Bath Soap: Dove body bar
Deodarant: Mitchum Fresh scent Clear
Hair: Treseme shampoo & Suave Humectant conditioner

Grocery shopping: Target & Pathmark (best deals)
Ice cream: Haagen Daz-Vanilla bean & Strawberry (the absolute best flavors)

Clothes: Gap, JCrew, Banana Republic, (H&M & Old Navy for throw-away clothes)
Sneakers: lo Converse red or white
Shoes: Cute and funky flats (Steve Madden or Nine West) Heels: Enzo Angiolini (comfy)
Handbags: Isabella Fiore & Gustto
Eyeglasses: Chanel
Sunglasses: Coach

*singing* These are a few of my favorite things

Song: Here I Am-Rick Ross & Nelly

Food & Relationships

2008-08-12T10:37:00.007-04:00

Daily change: did not buy cookies, cakes, sweets, chocolate, or beef at the grocery yesterday

My hubby picked me up from the train station yesterday and before we drove off he asked me,

"Babe, you said you wanted to buy new clothes for work, right?"
"Yeah! and...?"
"So when do you want to buy these new clothes?"
I thought about it and I saw where he was going with this line of questioning, so I replied,
"As soon as I lose the weight I want to" and he then asked the most important question of all.
"S0, when do you think that will be?"
I said "Starting today!" And you know what? I really meant it.
and he replied "Me too. I want to change how I eat and I want us to be healthy together".

We went to the grocery and I didn't pick up any cookies, cakes, sweets, chocolate, or beef. We both decided that we wanted to change the way we ate starting right then and there. My husband has been trying to get me to go jogging with him and to eat better for the longest. But of course, I've put it off because of laziness. It takes hard work and determination to lose weight.

Since we got together I've gained between 25 and 30 pounds and so has he. I think that happens to a lot of couples. They get together, they go out to dinners all the time, their happy (or angry depending on what's happening in their relationship) and the emotional eating takes over. Some people think emotional eating means your sad and you just eat to dull the pain. But I realize that's not always the case. Emotional eating is what we all do. Everytime there's a birthday, holiday, breakup, makeup, get together, girls pow-wow, baby shower, wedding, etc. etc., food is right there center stage.

I've definitely noticed that being in a relationship has changed my eating and exercise habits as well as those of my husband. When I wasn't in a serious relationship, I worked out a lot, I ate less, partied more and so did he. He confessed to me while looking at an old picture of himself with his abs, that when he was single (lonely and depressed because we hadn't met yet) he would lift weights, do wheatgrass shots and eat tofu. Now that we're together, we're at the restaurants all the time, we have leisurely appetizing brunches on Sundays and lately since we're both working all the time, we hardly cook at home.

There has to be a change. Hopefully, now that we both want to make a change we can help each other get on a healthier track.

At least we can agree that certain foods are not allowed in our grocery cart!!

Song: Happy Sad-Pizzicato Five

How I lost the first 66 pounds...

2008-08-10T09:52:00.006-04:00

Daily change: gained 1.6pds :(

I got to thinking about how I lost the weight previously. What was going on in my life at the time and what strategies was I using to get the weight off. I've compiled a list of what I did and hopefully I can do it again or tweek it based on where I am in life right now.

So, at the time I was living in a house with three floors so I was constantly walking up and down stairs. Now I live in an apartment so that is definitely different. However, I would always be in my car driving from place to place, now I walk 4 blocks to and from the train plus I work in the City so I'm walking more when I'm there too. Let me put these things in a list form so it is easier to see what I used to do:

Exercises
1. walking up and down stairs
2. walked on treadmill 20-30 minutes 4/5 times a week
3. 20-30 minutes of cardio DVD 2 times a week (at least)
4. 50-100 jumping jacks a day
5. 5 pd weight training for about 15 minutes 4/5 times a week
6. 60 arm rotations forward and 60 arm rotations back
7. 20 minutes of pilates/yoga moves, lunges, bottom exercises, and crunches 4/5 times a week.

Breakfast Options
1. 2 eggs, sausage, toast w/ butter
2. Special K cereal
3. Toasted muffin w/butter
4. toasted english muffins w/butter

Snack Options
1. Light pop corn
2. Fruit-oranges, grapes, pears, mango
3. Yogurt
4. String Cheese
5. Sunchips
6. Pretzels

Lunch Options
1. Cold cut sandwich w/ chips
2. Salad & grilled chicken w/dressing
3. Grilled chicken caesar salad wrap
4. Wendys- small salad, large chili, and order of chicken nuggets

Dinner Options
1. Salmon w/sauteed onions and scallions with steamed broccoli
2. Seasoned shrimp with vegetables and baked potato
3. Slice of pizza
4. Lean Cuisines
5. Tuna fish sandwich
6. Cheese and crackers w/ hot chocolate
7. Burger king-onion rings and grilled chicken sandwich (no soda)
8. Chinese food-wanton soup & beef and brocolli (no rice)

Dessert Options
1. Ice cream (not every day)

*I didn't eat breakfast everyday. I would sometimes eat once a day. I was hardly hungry. I rarely ate after 7:30pm. I worked out at 4pm when I got home from work. I never had soda (diet or regular). I did not drink juice. I only drank water. I would randomly do exercises in my office when my boss wasn't there-like squats and arm circles. I was finishing up my degree so I would always be studying-no time to really eat. I would grab a slice of pizza & Starbucks from the cafeteria and go to my night classes.
My bestfriend and I would go to dinner at least once a week to Red Lobster,Pf Changs, Cheesecake factory or to the movies and Friday's. So at least once a week I would have everything and anything I wanted, no holding back!
We would also go out clubbing twice a month, so I was definitely drinking alcohol.

There were times when I tried Xenadrine (but that didn't work). I tried laxatives but the water weight came back after as well. Sometimes I would only eat grapes and crackers for the whole day and I lost weight. I can honestly say, that the less I ate but still exercised, I would then see results. I don't mean starve myself but when I had the smallest of portions---that was the only time the weight would come off and stay off.

Song: Good Life-Kanye West

Me In Stages...

2008-08-09T13:34:00.014-04:00

Daily change: Facing the obvious-Pictures Don't Lie.
I've gained weight and I hate the way I look now.

May 2004-my heaviest

August 2006-my smallest 66 pds smaller than heaviest

July 2008-me now 25 pds heavier than smallest

I can't wait to get down to my smallest size again. I was a size 12 and I felt hot!! I have so many cute outfits that I can't fit into because I've gained all this weight. I just bought some clothes for work and it broke my heart to spend $100 when I know I should just lose the weight to fit into the clothes that I have which are sitting in my hope chest.
I will get back on track!!! I lost over 60 pounds before and I know I can do it again. I just need to do the things I was doing before. Most importantly I need to exercise. I say it to myself all the time, and no matter what you eat or how well you diet, exercising is the KEY. I just need to find something that I can stick to and not get frustrated or bored with. I definitely don't want to spend money on a gym membership. I think it's such a waste of money especially right now when we're trying to save all of our money to buy a home.

I need to do a weigh-in tomorrow morning. Yikes!

Any advice or words of encouragement would be helpful. :)

Song: Say It-Rihanna

Afternoon walk!

2008-08-05T12:59:00.000-04:00

Daily change: walked half way across Brooklyn Bridge

Weight loss: 1.4 pounds-23.6 to go

My 2 coworkers and I walked half way across the Brooklyn Bridge. It was so nice!! Today it's 85 degrees, low humidity with a little breeze blowing here and there. I feel like I need a little nap but what I don't feel for is FOOD. I will wait until tonight and have a healthy dinner. I will have to work out tonight as well.

I can't wait to lose this weight, go to Barbados and wear my sexy white bikini. I think I might just buy one in a size 8 and work my way in to it. What do you think?? :)

Song: Kokomo-Beach boys

Weekend Wrap Up

2008-08-04T10:19:00.000-04:00

Daily change: *still working on it*
Weight: gained 2pds

Nothing to report on this weekend beside our shopping trip to IKEA. On the food front, all I can say is that I ate bad. I didn't get any exercise and I really need to because when I was doing my little exercises in the house I felt better and my pants were fitting better as well.

So since I have nothing really to post, I have this little survey from http://ronisweigh.com/2008/07/a-silly-survey.html#more-595 to add.

1. What time did you get up this morning? 6:45am
2. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Hellboy & a little bit of Dark Knight
3. What is your favorite TV show? What not to wear
4. What do you usually have for breakfast? Cereal, eggs, sausage, cream of wheat
5. What is your middle name? Serene
6. What food do you dislike? Anything slimey
7. What kind of car do you drive? Volkswagen Passat
8. Favorite sandwich? Subway steak sandwich or ham and cheese with everything
9. What characteristic do you despise? Lying and Bragging
10. Favorite item of clothing? Comfy sexy jeans
11. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? Europe (anywhere & everywhere)
12. Where would you retire to? Barbados & London
13. What was your most recent memorable birthday? 28, my hubby and I spent the day together
14. When is your birthday? August 26
15. Morning person or a night person? Both.
16. Pets? None yet. But I would love a puppy and some fish
17. What did you want to be when you were little?
18. How are you today? Bored and hungry and anxious to leave work
19. What is your favorite flower? Peonies or cymbidium orchids
20. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to seeing? August 26th, my bday
21. What are you listening to right now? My boss typing in the cubicle behind me lol
22. What was the last thing you ate? cheerios
23. Do you wish on stars? All the time
24. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Green
25. How is the weather right now? Beautiful 77 degrees, sunny, low humidity in NYC
26. Last person you spoke to on the phone? My dad
27. Favorite restaurant? Magnolia in park slope
28. Favorite color? Green
29. What was your favorite toy as a child? Books
30. Summer or winter? Neither. I love fall & spring
31. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla
32. What is under your bed? Clothes in bags
33. What did you do last night? Watch TV, talk to hubby, read, sleep
34. What are you afraid of? Being broke, getting breast cancer
35. Salty or sweet? Both
36. How many years at your current job? Almost 2
37. Favorite day of the week? The weekend. (4pm Friday to 12am Sunday)

Song: Adele-Chasing pavements

My Body & Style INSPIRATION!!

2008-08-01T11:29:00.000-04:00

Daily change: "To see a better you, envision it first!"

I honestly love America Ferrera! Whenever I see her I feel inspired to eat better and make healthier food choices because I love the way she looks. Her style is exactly how I dress already and how I want to look when I get down to that size. In an article in Glamour magazine, she stated that she was about a size 6/8. That is my goal size.

I wanted to put her pictures up so that I can see what I aspire to in the future as more motivation for me. Plus, her personality seems so great and she is so confident with herself. I love that about her and she's really pretty too.

I haven't seen anyone else who inspires me quite the way she does. For some reason when I look at her, I feel like my body shape will be like that when I lose weight. So, it's like seeing my AFTER picture beforehand. It's such a MAJOR boost for me. I'm actually ready to work out right now. :)

I wonder how much she weighs, though??

song: I wanna dance with somebody-Whitney Houston

Thoughts: Education is key

2008-08-01T10:27:00.000-04:00

Besides trying to lose weight to look great and become a healthier person, I'm also trying to educate myself on living a healthy lifestyle. I've been reading a few websites that talk about healthy living and seeing the difference between what I was doing and how I want to live in the future. As well, I've taken the initiative to really educate myself about my health benefits at work and what is best for me etc. I really believe that knowledge is key. Just the fact that I've taken these steps to educate myself makes me feel better about my food choices and about trying to exercise more because being healthy is a constant part of my life now. It is not just an afterthought. I realize that by thinking about being healthy rather than thinking about being slim and sexy, I feel MORE motivated to make better choices about food.

I don't know if anyone going through this journey has felt that way too but it feels empowering to know that I'm in control of my health to a certain extent.

my moment of weakness...

2008-07-31T20:43:00.000-04:00

...and i'm not feeling as guilty as i usually would. i wanted some candy and i had some. C'est la vie! eating a little so i don't eat a lot seems smarter than me eating a whole box of Oreos or a whole pint of vanilla Haagen Daz ice-cream. (Because ya know I could!!)

*my stomach sooooo hurts right now* Yikes. maybe that candy was not such a good idea.

to eat or not to eat....

2008-07-31T15:40:00.000-04:00

daily change: took brisk walk at lunch

i choose to eat! i woke up this morning and was in such a rush (because of course i was running late) that i totally forgot to eat breakfast and i didn't even feel hungry. but around 11:30am my stomach started to attack. it was rumbling to the point that i could not concentrate. i decided it was time to think about lunch.

since i didn't have breakfast, i didn't want to eat too bad for lunch even though my mind was screaming cheeseburger, french fries, empanadas, burritos, anything greasy...
i decided to take a 15 minute brisk walk down Broadway to Century 21 in the blazing hot sun. then i walked around in there for another 30 minutes and then i walked back to work another brisk 30 minutes. on the way back to the office, i stopped and bought a bag of sweet cherries from a street vendor and figured i would have that after i ate lunch. i ended up getting lamb, lettuce, and tomato salad with cucumber sauce and hot sauce (no rice). YUMMMMM. i ate my cherries and 2 mini candy bars and i am full. i plan to drink a lot of water until it's time to go home. tonight i'm making grilled chicken and steamed broccoli. also, i plan on dancing around the house and doing some strength training.

these little changes here and there are making me feel good. I got on the scale this morning and i was down 4pds. my high heels are not feeling so tight as well. it's a small change but i'll take it.

song: I decided-Solange

need to exercise...

2008-07-30T20:02:00.000-04:00

goal weight: 150
1st target: 25pds
daily change: focus was not on food for the last few days

so for the last few days I've been busy with work so eating hasn't been a priority. i ate pretty well. even though I ate well, i haven't started exercising. i know for a fact that if I don't start working out that this weight isn't going to go anywhere because I'm not the type to starve myself. i like food too much.

so i need to find a way to start exercising for real. i'm not motivated at all. i don't like exercise tapes (even though I have a bunch of them) and i don't want to exercise in the morning. i like to sleep in. the only thing i will do is put on music and dance around the house. also, i like walking and even weight training is alright.

so my mission is to motivate myself to dance around the house and do some weight training. right now i've been eating candy more than i should and i need to cut that out.

*update--going to dance around the house for 20 minutes @ 9:15pm*

today's food
breakfast: fruit bowl
lunch: raisin bran cereal w/1% milk for lunch
dinner: i ate 2 pork chops with a handful of mash potatoes
dessert: 3 mini snicker bars & queen's mini cake :(

song: break out-swing out sister

this is me now...

2008-07-28T21:18:00.000-04:00

age: 28
weight: *not ready to say yet*
1st target weight loss: 25 pds
goal weight: 150
daily change: Starting this blog

So, this is me now. I am overweight and not liking it one bit. However, there are days when I get geared up and ready to start a new diet. I buy all the diet foods, dust off my sneakers and work out clothes and then nothing happens. I basically carry on with the same routine of eating, starving, enjoying a lot of good food, then being filled with regret. One thing I must say is that not only am I an emotional eater but I am also a "foodie". I love food. I love to try new foods and go out to restaurants all the time. As I've gotten older, I realize I really don't feel like cooking anymore. I think my husband spoiled me. He always cooked for me but now he too loves going out to restaurants rather than slaving over a hot stove.

I've decided that I need to make some changes but I know me...if I set my sights too far in advance, forget it. (Even though deep down inside I see myself with a white bikini on at 145 pounds frolicking on the beach in Barbados with my husband).
But let's not get carried away.

The reason I decided to blog is for accountability. I want to hold myself accountable to changing something daily regarding my health, my weight, my inner beauty and my outer beauty. If I can make these small changes and hold myself accountable (not just listening to the voice in my head) but by seeing the daily words that I write, then maybe, just maybe I can FINALLY get into that white bikini.

Song: Sometimes-Angie Stone